At a loss

I'm in a really argumentative mood.I even picked a fight with someone on craigslist.This woman posted this girls email address, telling everyone not to trust her as a nanny because she failed to show up for a scheduled interview. Whether or not this woman was wrong or right by defaming this girl on a public forum, I went in for the kill.Afterall, the greatest debator/arguer wins even when they're wrong, as my dad always says. So yah, we've been going back and forth in emails. I wish she'd hurry up and reply. Hah. I'm such a fucking loser.

I'm going back to school, but I don't know what I want to do with my life. I'm researching all different kinds of things, trying to pinpoint what would be good for me. There are so many different things...social work, therapist, anything involving research, something involving children, writing..Like I don't know where to start. I really don't. I feel I'd be most content doing something that involves caring for others, but I also want to be able to do something that involves the constant "quest for knowledge." Dude, I wish I went away to college. I wish my parents forced me to do it.Now I'm 2 months shy of 26, with no direction, going back to community college. I know I have the potential to do awesome things (sorry, not to toot my own horn, but it's true)...I just don't what and I don't know where and how to begin....Oy. I'm so fucking discouraged and STUCK!!!!!!!!I just know I can't continue on being mediocre and living a mediocre life. Something has to change. Well, EVERYTHING has to change.